I'm not sure but I think I had a slight nervous break down at the office today. The day started off peachy, went to lunch with Sean, came back at 2 then BAM. Shit hit the fan.

I had made a little boo boo on some memos I sent out...It was just a "little" mistake, according to the Big R, but I felt like it was the end of my being. I wanted to vomit but quickly fixed my error but I can't quite get it out of my mind. I CAN'T MAKE MISTAKES AT THIS JOB. I just can't. What did I get myself into?

I'm here, not wanting to go into the office tomorrow, I do, but I don't. It's a love/hate relationship. I love my job, I hate making mistakes.

Officemates dragged me to a bar to try and liquor me up some. That didn't work. All I wanted to do was stand under the shower (with my clothes on) and wash away the day.

It doesn't even matter that it's the weekend. I can't even enjoy it. All I ever have on my mind is work. Deadlines. Reports. Lastnight, I fucking had a dream about work.

I guess the good thing about anything is I have accumulated five vacation days, three sick days and two personal days.

After the bar, I went home then went to the mall. I exchanged the eyeglasses I recently bought for some new(er)ones. They were cheaper than the first ones I bought, which made me happy. I dunno if they look like crap on me but I don't give a shit anymore.

I just want to sleep.

Quiet time.

Today I accomplished a lot. The day went smoothly and I managed to pop out of the office at 5:30, instead of 6 or 7, when I'm really suppose to leave at 5.

Since I have the energy to actually THINK for a moment, I'll begin by blogging about my recent over night trip to NY to visit a friend. It was an awkward visit, what I thought would be a camera happy event turned out to be an, "okay, I'm here, now what do we do" moment(s). I walked almost 70 blocks lugging a backpack, sweating like a pig. OINK FUCKING OINK. I really didn't get to enjoy the weekend. However, the highlight of my weekend was meeting the bestest cat ever who thinks he can use his paws like a human. BUT, I have to say the video of Jen's cat, Yoshi, throwing his toy mouse back to Jen every time she threw it at him slightly tops that. That cracked me up.

Jeez, what else.

Uhm...

My brother found a baby turtle while camping in Wisconcin...(I know, what kinda camping can you do in Wisconcin for Chrissakes)I'm excited. I can't wait to visit Chicago and see the new turtle.


What else...

I can't seem to think right now so I'll just leave you be. Be back later.

I am working from home again tonight and Sean just walked in from his weekly game of Earth Dong on Mondays (I think they play something else now but I still like calling it Earth Dong...)

"So what'd you have for dinner? One of those breakfast sandwiches?"

"No. I had a Chinese sausage...

...And he just left."

BADDUMP BUM CHING!!

Man, I crack myself up. I laughed so hard I snorted. Sean walked away trying not to crack a smile and shaking his head.

I really did eat chinese sausage for dinner, with rice, and broiled eggplant.

Okay, back work I go.

So much shit goin' on, it's unreal. I don't know how many times I can say I really enjoy my job, but, I feel like there are certain things holding me back. It's quite frustrating, and, I'm one of those people who has a lot of patience but, I am human, and I do have a temper.

I bought a new pair of eyeglasses today, I don't know if I like them. I'm having a buyers remorse moment. I have 30 days to return them, so please, if you see me...Give me your honest opinion on them.

OH! One good thing that happened this weekend was I finally went to the dentist after 3 or so years and took a beating as my teeth were getting cleaned. The pain was excruciating but I deserved it especially since I hadn't taken the time to see a dentist in so long. I expected the man to tell me that I'd have to come back in a few days to rid of the many cavities that accumulated over the years on my chiclets (sean says my teeth look like chiclets)but no, he stated that "You have no cavities but you do have two lower wisdom teeth that will be painful to extract." Apparently, one has grown in sideways and is slightly protruding out of my gums, and the other one is growing in upside down. We were actually laughing as he showed me my Xrays. "Yes, that one will be painful to remove...I'm not sure if they'll even wanna attempt to remove it." - - He says, laughing. I started to laugh, too, don't ask me why. The thought of someone chiseling away at my tooth is absolutely terrifying.

Anyway, I'm just happy that I do not have any cavities.

I had other stuff to blog about but laundry calls.