My Christmas.

It was everything I thought it wouldn't be.

It was alright, most of the time I had to go into "the zone"...the zone where I go to when I pretend I'm listening to someone and I'm actually not.

The REAL Christmas for Bf's family will be on Sunday when everyone will exchange gifts because Bf's brother and sister-in-law were out of town for Christmas - Though I don't know why I have to open up gifts given to me from Bf or Bf's parents in front of said Bf's brother and SiL. I don't really want to go, Sunday. I don't really care if I get presents either. But I DO have to go because the last several get togethers they've had, I've nixed.
I feel like I'm walking on eggshells when I'm there. It doesn't feel comfortable being there. I dislike being alone with Bf's SiL because she corners me and gossips or tries to get me to talk about personal stuff. I WILL go to enjoy the company of Bf's 2 y.o niece. She's cute.

I hope your Christmas was everything you wanted it to be.

Love,
Emma

It's Christmas eve.

Funny. It doesn't feel like it.

I went over to Karen's to feed the kitties.Poor guys, I try to go there as much as I can. I wish I could babysit them at my house.
Bing let me pick her up and she didn't growl, she meowed softly. Then she let me sit her on my lap as I pet her. So cute, she lay her head on my knee as I patted away. She must miss Karen and John.
Rayford was very happy to see me. I hate leaving them all alone.

I also did some last minute shopping. Well, not really. I guess boyfriend's family decided to have Christmas this Sunday since boyfriends brother and wife will be away on Christmas day. I just don't get why we have to wait to open ALL our presents till they get back.
It's okay I suppose. I guess it'll be good to buy things on Saturday during after Christmas sales.
If I would have known they were pulling a switcheroo, I'd have flown to Chicago.
We're still having a big Christmas dinner. It's not the same though. I'm losing touch with the Christmas spirit.

I want it back.

Merry Christmas, everyone. May you receive many blessings, to you and yours.

Note to self:

Just because something looks good on someone else, doesn't mean it'll look good on you.

How come I always learn the hard way?

The other day, I went to the movies and saw 'Something's gotta give'. I really liked one of the actress's hairstyle. Amanda Peet's to be exact. I liked it so much I decided to cut my hair like hers...and yes, I cut it myself.
The haircut involves a lot of bangs.
Use your imagination.

On a lighter note. I'm making chocolate ganache crisps. Yes, I found the Famous Nabisco Chocolate Wafers. I almost gave up, too and I was going to use a substitute cookie but I remembered my friend telling me not to give up if I don't find it and so I did one last walk up and down the isle and found them. They were on the top shelf and almost out of them. They must be really popular.

I'll let you know how they taste but until then...Picture me eating chocolate wafers with a mulletized rice bowl haircut.

I almost passed out at Marshalls. I felt my chest tighten and felt overwhemed by the pressure in my head yet I continued to shop.

Earlier I had an appointment then, I went to the mall to shop because I thought it wouldn't be packed. I was wrong. Everyone and their gramma's were there. Even at the mall I felt sickly but I continued to push forward. I got Sean and Sean's mom a couple things then walked into the Sharper Image and sat in this for a few minutes. Okay twenty minutes. I want this.
As I was being massaged, a little girl named Emily sat in the Ijoy chair next to me. We had loads of fun. Good times.
THEN, as I was still sitting there, wouldn't you know it, I see my boyfriend browsing in the store, too. I called out to him, then we ate lunch together. Then, I went to Marshall's where I got sick. Then I went home to try and sleep. I still have a slight pain in my head. I am going to try and do more shopping tomorrow, I am DEFINITELY waking up earlier to do this.