This has been a long week for me even though we had Monday off. At the prison two days out of the four days, I feel like I don't recognize my desk. I've got so much shit to do. A whole lotta researching.

We were suppose to get a thunder storm tonight but it doesn't look like it's gonna happen. I wish it would, I like thunderstorms, they scare me.

Anyway, I feel odd for some reason, gonna go watch the tele.

Can someone tell me why I get all stupid when I see him? He tried to help me drag my rollie cart out of the TC and I refused his help. He comes upstairs and I look the other way and smirk. I try to avoid him as much as possible then look at him as he walks away.

Oh, he's so handsome.

This is me.

I like to play paintball, not so often...I have to want to take the feeling of a paintball splattering against my person. The stinging pain, the shock...I have to want that to happen to me.

If I want something, I go get it. For instance, the $15.00 bento box filled with sashimi and california rolls I am eating right now. If I had to, I'd drive across town to get it.

One Christmas, I decided to buy Sean a really high tech telescope. I found it at a really good price from a store that I called to make sure they had it before I drove the 60 miles (both ways) to a town I had never heard of, to go get it. They said they did have it. I drove 60 miles. Clerk tells me they don't have it...which brings me to my next point about me.

When I get mad, I get really mad.

So the clerk tells me they don't have it so I proceed to tell him about the many phone calls I made to their establishment for assurance that they had the product I wanted. I can feel my face turning red and I start to have hot flashes. I explained to the guy how physically, mentally, hazardly upset I am. I asked for his boss's boss. I left with a telescope one grade higher than what I was going to get at the sale price of the original one.
Also, when I get mad, it's best if you just let me sit and stew in my own anger of shit. I am liable to say something that could end whatever happy thought you have of me. Don't prod me, or joke around. I'll kill you.

I don't like to go out much unless it's with people I feel comfortable with, who've passed a test.

I don't like going to bars. A) I don't drink. I end up eating, not drinking. B) I don't conversate very well. I get into an Anti-Social mode. I stare into space thinking how other people must think I'm lame.

I decided that I do like chivalrous men. You see, before the age of 25, well, let's say 27, I used to get absolutely ripshit when a guy used to open a door for me or showed any politeness towards me. Don't ask why. I took it as the man trying to get a quick look at my ass or whatever. Or, they were being nice to me cuz they wanted something and let me tell you, I made sure to let them know I didn't have that something. If you get my drift.

Now, I'm all about having the doors opened for me. I don't know what changed me.

I am an electronic geek. I love my electronic gadgets. No, asshole, none of them require batteries - well, not the energizer kind, anyway.

I enjoy my new computer and printer and digicam and the other stuff I have. I feel like I'm too materialistic but I enjoy my gadgets so much.

I haven't seen a dentist for about two years or so. I'm so ashamed. I just made an appointment with a dental firm which happens the first week of May. I was inspecting my teeth with a mag lite the other day and man oh man, God help me. No, no...God help the dentist.

I go to bed at midnight. That's about twelve minutes away.

So, these are some of the things about me that you may or may not care to know about. I just decided to write about me and my little quirks.

Gosh, it's so beautiful out.

I'm here sitting at my workstation in my bedroom directly infront of a window with a gentle breeze blowing through my hair. I did go into work for a couple hours and accomplished a few things but am glad to be back home.

It's so nice to look in the mirror and see that the sun has kissed me. I cannot wait for summer!! Honeymoon Island here I come!!

Took Frodo outside to walk around the grass. Poor thing, he didn't know what to do, he looked so excited.

I want this weather to stay for eva and eva.

So there I was, drivin' around in my 4.0. The sun beating down on my face through my opened sun roof, thinkin' about all my issues, not takin' anythin' for granted.

Anyways.

I'm enjoying this weekend as much as I can. It's a three day weekend for me. Wasn't suppose to be. Last minute decision by the Execs. gave us the Monday off. I'm still going into work for a couple hours anyway.

You know, I can't even remember what I did yesterday? I think I ran a couple errands, then took Sean out to dinner and rented movies. Today I went shopping and cleaned house. I have so much laundry to do.

Note to self:

Never, ever, ever again let your home get this disheveled.

I am spent.

Big bro is back in the States. He's doing well which makes me happy.

I'm tired, I'm gonna go back to sipping my banana berry smoothie and read my new book.