One of the things I have noticed about the new job. I don't have to get all dressed up or have to lay an outfit out the night before.
They seem to be very casual, which is great. I went shopping for some new things to help me get fired up about work. New slacks, new shoes, new socks. New me.

As for work. It entails A LOT of paperwork, paper trails, a lot of confidentiality and high spirits. So far I've endured a great deal of training the past two days and it hasn't really stuck to my brain yet. I get nervous about it but my supervisor always reminds me that I've only been there for two days and I'll get it soon enough, and I will. :)
Next week I'll be going to the Corrections facility for the first time. I'm kinda excited! We're also getting another new hire on Monday which is GREAT.

My throat has been hurting which is worrying me. I do not want to get sick, again. I just had a damn cold a few weeks ago. I have an idea who I might have caught it from. Bf's S.I.L was sick over New Years, complaining of a sore throat e.t.c. I tried to stay away from her as much as I could but, oh well.

This is a going to be a very big weekend for me. A lot of get togethers with great people.

Happy Birthday to Caryn!!!!

My first day of work was good, thank you.

Good and intense. I kind of felt like I belonged.
I didn't eat lunch. I WAS hungry but it passed. I was too busy trying to learn the ropes. Tomorrow I will be more prepared. I have purchased snacks to hide in my desk. Clementines, Kudos and Tropicana smoothies. I think I'm gonna get one of those tiny coolers that can hold a 6 pack of pop. The neatest thing is I know where all the good restaurants are.
I don't like the bathrooms. They are unattractive. There IS a vending machine in the building, parking garage, Starbucks is just a five minute walk away, and I'm five minutes away from the mall, mother fuckers!


I've got to study. Talk to you soon.

How I spent my last night of unemployment.

Had dinnah with Meg. Had icky Burger King earlier in the day and felt sick so I ate a small salad and cheese sticks in hopes to have a bigger meal or dessert with Heather.
Met up with Sean and headed into Boston. Almost get crushed by a 75mph Silver Mustang.
Gathered myself after I saw my life flash before my eyes. Checked for soiled pants.
Hit 93 North. Almost there. Snow Burst. It was as if I was looking through a snow globe. It was such a beautiful sight. To be in clear weather, then BAM, InYo' face snow.
Made it to Heathers in tact. A little frazzled but safe and sound. Played with Katinka and read Heather's scrapbook. I like scrapbooks. Watched Pierce Brosnan make love to someone other than me. Didn't have dessert. Stupid snow.
Bickered with Sean on the way home.

So, I'm so nervous about tomorrow. (Excited a little)

I'm scared that I will not be what I know I'm capable of being. I'm afraid I'll be the bumbling idiot I am when I'm nervous. I'm scared.
I'll be fine once I get to know everyone's personalities. I'll ask lots of questions. I'll be fine.

Right?

Holy $%#% you guys, I start work tomorrow.
I will not be afraid. I will embrace this opportunity and as Mare told me, "This is your time to shine."

Mare? I think my bulb is busted. BUT I always keep a maglite in my purse!

You guys, this job is SO going to be different than what I've been dealing with for the past 6 years I've lived and worked in Boston (well minus 1 year I was unemployed). Is this the break I've been waiting for? What I've prayed for? I hope so.

I am nervous, but it is normal. I had a dream the day before they offered me the position.

I was in a hurry. Showered got dressed and went off to work not realizing I hadn't fixed my hair, let alone removed the towel off my head. So I walk in the office and people are greeting me giving me a big welcome when I see my reflection on glass. "EEK" I go to the bathroom to remove the towel from my head and walk back into the office. Apparently everyone thought the towel wrapped around my head was some cultural outfit.

I GOT THE JOB!

Might Just Let It Go

I know she said it's alright
But you can make it up next time
I know she knows it's not right
There ain't no use in lying
Maybe she thinks I know something
Maybe maybe she thinks its fine
Maybe she knows something I don't
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

I know she loves the sunrise
No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes
And I know that when she said she's gonna try
Well it might not work because of other ties and
I know she usually has some other ties
And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em
Maybe she'll help me to untie this but
Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie too

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down
It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go

The harder that you try baby, the further you'll fall
Even with all the money in the whole wide world
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me
Please please please don't pass me by

Everything you know about me now baby you gonna have to change
You gonna have to call it by a brand new name
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down

Just like a tree down by the water baby I shall not move
Even after all the silly things you do
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me
Please please please don't drag me down